I wonder if you ever think to yourself, “I’m nothing without her.”

xkellyly:

I’m tired of getting played, of getting my hopes up and seeing them crash, of having to constantly pretend nothing happened, of thinking I’m not good enough, of getting left for someone else, of all this routine stuff. I’m just waiting for someone to come along and finally break the cycle. 

As much as I want to be apart of your life, I don’t want to be put in it just because your first choice didn’t work out.

Why am I still the one who ends up crying? Maybe because I realize what we had is now really over, maybe because our relationship actually meant something to me, or maybe because I lost the one person I couldn’t bare to lose. I just hope I made the right choice.

Here’s the rules:
You keep hurting me and fucking up.
I’ll forgive you and put everything back into place.
We’ll act like nothing happened.
I’m the one who will feel the emotional effects.
Now let’s repeat.

Just because you’ve been in a relationship for a long period of time doesn’t give you an excuse to go on autopilot. You can’t fall into the same routine and pattern, repeatedly making mistakes. You actually need to think about your actions and reactions to keep what you have going.

I rather be in my room by myself than standing in a crowd. It’s calming and causes less pressure for my overactive mind, but maybe that’s just me.